Looking back

I'll be looking back into a life that was crazy, dangerous, suicidal and at times, which I thought, was a lot of fun! I just thought taking drugs was normal. When I took drugs I felt normal. I always felt better when I was induced with drugs, whatever the drug was. Heroin was the first drug that I started taking, sorry, that was after a short period of smoking and eating Grass and Hashish. I started to hang out in squats, and in these squats there was always a good supply of drugs. It was the beginning of the eighties and I loved the Punk scene. I was a Punk. Thinking back and looking at myself objectivly, I was just a troubled young man. I was a friendly kid, who had lots of love to give. A nice Punk trying to look bad. I did love adventure, and I did love danger. It was a magnet for me. At first I wasn't intrigued with drugs, and I did know that they were harmful and could kill. I was living near Zurich, which had a conciderable sized drug problem, espesially with Heroin. One of my close friends, and one of my first girlfriends was hooked on Heroin at the age of Fourteen. Shooting Heroin at Fourteen.....I hated the hold it had on her.